One step forward, five or six steps backward.

I'll never understand how life can be so difficult for some people and so easy for others.  I guess its all in how we handle it.  I don't seem to be handling it very well.   Seems like since the end of last year, things seem to be getting worse in some cases.  Tristen is wonderful and I met a very nice man who doesn't drink.   Rainy went to move in with her dad, while Sarah and Lil T are living here with us.  All of us, Too many people in this little trailer.  Though Sarah still is battling her addiction, Rain is doing better in school but still is parting and occasionally doing stuff shes shouldn't be doing.  On a weekend of a show, Sarah helped herself to my car and something that made her not act like herself.  She blacked out while driving my car and flipped it. Totaled, I now have to struggle and get a newer car. I'm thankful Lil  T was not with her and that shes still alive.  I guess I'm just feeling down.

I had forgotten how to get this blog, I guess everything would of eventually  got meshed together.   Don't know when my last post was but my life has been so crazy since then, if it wasn't crazy enough then!!  Two good points are though,  I didn't marry that guy who drank too much and called me a liar and  I have the most gorgeous grandson in the world! Tristen Michael. 

Just another day

Just another day, Happy Mothers Day! I know that sounded bad, but I really haven't been doing well with the holidays lately. I love my girls, yet one I didn't even see today. I did hear her voice which I had been wanting to hear for over a week or more. Rainy did spent a little more time with me than she usually does. I just don't know what it is and why? Work is one reason I know, I hate it. Being lonely is another. Well I guess I will end this pity party for now.....

Happy Thanksgiving

Hello, Happy Thanksgiving! First of all, my toes are cold but thats what I get for not wearing socks. Today turned out right nice, Sarah came over and Dad didnt fuss any! Terry was supposed to work but they called her last night and asked her if she would rather work then and be off today and she said yes.. I would too! I have to work in the morning, but I am used to that.

Happy

Its Friday night ...yeah so

Its Friday night, and yeah so.... Im here doing absolutely nothing but listening to music. Sarah begged me to come over tonite, its too far and Rainy is with her Daddy at the football game where Rainy didnt pay attention to the coach and was supposed to wear her cheer uniform. He came to pick it up and was somehow back at the school in less than 6 minutes. Oh well. Last week was nice, this week has not been so nice... I guess Im just down. This video is from the fair talent show, they are singing the food song.

Hi again.. got to go somewhere in a just a few minutes and I'm hungry. Yesterday at the mall i saw my girls, Rainy is with her father this weekend but she had a fashion show. Sarah came to watch as well. I have such lovely girls. Anyway, speaking of lovely girls, Friday night i was invited to a Tea Party, oh so different than what I am used to and to see 3 young ladies in their 20's gather to drink tea and do crafts, I was impressed. Unfortunately, even though two of the girls share my daughter's name, she was not one of them but for some reason I think she would of thought it odd. Oh well i enjoyed it. Heres a pic of Rainy just as she ran off stage.